When you're simply not impressed.

Morning/Afternoon/Evening.

After two days of complete rain, guess what? It's still raining lol!!
Wonder where Noah and his boat is? Hahaha.

As you can see by the title, I'm not that impressed. It is annoying when the pro's seem to think they know better than you, yet you know your body better than anyone else. Each body is unique, esp the chemical make-up.
Me, my body is how do you put this politely? Ultra unique due to the chemo I endured in 1983.
Not too long ago I had an argument with the Nurse Practicioner, I'd lost half a stone in weight due to taking iron, (the irony is each time i ate something, had to take my iron tab and within 10mins I was chucking up) despite me saying that to her she insisted I gotta keep taking it, my reply, no chance.

Why do the pro's (not all of them admittedly) think they know me better than I do? The only people who seem to listen are the people at St. James', who listen intently and point me in the right direction. My GP, Gyneacologist etc seem to think that either I make stuff up or they know what's best, well guess what? Try walking a mile in my shoes, then tell me that I'm wrong!!!!

Since a previous GP told me that it was a waste of time, money and resources for me to be going to St James' for my annual check ups, I've had a sorta phobia of doctors since. My consultant in Leeds went mental and repremanded the GP, still it doesn't help me because each time I go see GP I always think they will think its a waste of time me being there. So I'm always a nervous wreck when I gotta go!

So my thought for the week - always question everything, fight your corner and never give up, you may regret it :-)

Life feels as if it has changed...

I cannot believe how long it has been since I was last on this blog site!!!!

Well firstly onto the drab stuff - I failed my Uni exam back in August, being the saddo I am, I cried, but not for long as I knew I'd be able to have one last shot in a resit, which is in just over 4 weeks time.
The job front is rubbish, so after this resit I will be looking at voluntary work it will at least keep me occupied and gain me experience :-).
Health wise, not that good to be honest, muscles and joints are swollen, which makes it harder to move, haven't had a period in 9 weeks and no I'm not pregnant lol, so I have no idea at all, though my mum seems to think I'm going through the change lmao, wouldn't surprise me, the doctors may however dis-agree. Will have to make an app with GP.

I know people are worse off than me, I get that and appreciate that it could be so much worse, but every now and again, it proves too much and for a bit I feel sorry for myself.
I've never been deadly ambitious, all I have ever wanted was a bit of financial security, decent health and to be a published author. The publishing thing is however in proccess as I am (not at the moment, too busy revising) editing the first book, that may take another year or so to complete before looking at Literary agencies and seeing if it is (the book i mean) any good.
My friend and vampire sis Nat is co-author on this particular series, I made her write a bit and since has been hooked.
I have quite a few ideas on the go but can't really do anything until the exam is finished and edited the first book in our series, but saying that if I ever get bored I can continue with the other ideas as a break.

In my mind I moan about my life frequently, strange really as I know full well I am the only one who can turn it around, but there is a saying - good things come to those who wait. I'm impatient lmao.

My life really isn't adding upto much at the moment but somehow change is in the air and with each passing day I am slowly realising that being more positive helps, as does sarcasm hahahaha.

Right I best get on with revision - reading James Joyce's The Dubliners and make notes.

Thanks for reading and yes I moan an awful lot pmsfl!!!